How is your new job going? After being a stay at home mom for so long it must be hard to go back to work. At least you love what you do. That should make it easier to get used to. So how is the house hunt going? Found anything good yet? Houses are a ton more expensive in California aren't they? We miss you back here in Utah. The other day I almost called you to invite you to have Sunday dinner with us. Yeah I don't think you would have been able to make it.
You are such a great sister, Paula. It's no wonder I miss you so much. You have always been there for me. From those hard times before I got my depression under control, to my first break up I always new I could call on you for help. Just knowing that made me feel so much better. It still does. I can still ask for your help and I can still call you if I ever need someone to talk to and knowing that makes me feel... like I have a lifeline. Because I know that you love me.
Paula I want you to always remeber that I will always be there for you like you have been there for me. You can call me in the middle of the night if you need to rant and you can come visit anytime. You can take my room I wouldn't mind sleeping on the floor. Paula I don't know what this life will bring either of us. I'm no fortune teller I have no clue what kind of challenges or changes will present themselves. I do know that I will always love you and that if you will just ask I will be there.
I love you.
Your sister,
Ella
You haven't been gone long but I miss you all the same. Sometimes it was hard living in such tight quarters but it was still great to have you so close. I miss your little boys. It is wierd for me to call them yours, even though they are your children. I guess I just always think of them as mine; my nephews.
I wish you were still here. I guess that is a selfish desire. You have a lot of great opportunities in California. I know it is really important to you and your husband to be self sufficient. I understand that, all the same, I pray every night that you will come back here someday soon. I want to be a part of your life and not just over the phone or throught emails.
I am really gunna miss our girls nights out and trading good books with you. I guess I won't be close enough to babysit for you anymore either. I won't be able to help you around the house or take little Zander to church. I wish that I could.
Thankfully, there is someone else that wants to help you just as much, no, even more, than I do. He is amazing. He moves with you where ever you go and has the power and strength to help you more than I ever could. He watches over your childred all the time. He teaches them important lessons and He gave you and your kids several amazing books they teach life lessons that help me everyday. (He gave the book to me too) He is absolutely perfect and loves you unconditionaly.
He has done many things for you already. He helped you find your job. He gave you sterngth on all those hard days when your kids were disobedient and your patience was running low. He healed you when you were sp violently sick last week. He helped you get packed before the moving van came. He healed dad after that horrible heart attack. These are just a few of the thousands of things that he has done for you.
He has the most beautiful mansions, very far away from here. He has incredible connections and influence all over. He is as rich as they come and guess what? He loves you so much that He wants to give it all to you! Everything he has. All of it; Because you are His child. Yes, He is our father in heaven and he loves us so much that he would give us his mansions in heaven.
If there was one thing that I could give you it would be a stronger relationship with your heavenly father. But that isn't a gift I am capable of giving. I can't force you to pray and ask for his help. I can't make you read the scriptures. I can't drag you to church. So I guess the only thing I can do for you is pray.
So I will. I will pray that you will remember that He loves you I will pray that you will think of Him on hard days when you don't know where to turn. I will pray that He will give you a little extra patience with the kids when they are disobedient. I will pray that you will read the scriptures that He gave you and that you will learn from them like I have. I will pray that you will remember where you want to be after this life is over and I will pray with all my heart that you will make the choices that will bring you true happiness, the joy that only God can give. Most importantly I will pray with all my heart that we can all be together in heaven after we leave this world.
